Hi bekkiyln,
I had tears in my eyes reading your post - thank you for the kind words. Its hard to make up your mind to go for something big - its specially hard for me, cause once I do decide I go for it like my mind is on fire. I havent written any applications yet - (its a huge cost to go to school, plus if I do go I plan to go full time, it will affect my family, both financially and on a personal front). Its been a very very hard issue to tussle with.....
What I do know however is I started with a dream, that never seems to go away, never seems to die. I still wake up at night dreaming I am sitting in a class at Harvard or Stanford, blissfully lapping up some great information from a awesome set of professors and students. I still feel the same sweet pain, when I even hear the words MBA. I have missed applying for the first round - but after reading your post, I do believe that I will apply.....
When I wrote this blog, it felt like i had documented a very personal part of me, it felt like shedding some big load, and letting people know that "hey not all the people who get good scores are geniuses, there are people who struggle a lot too - but still make it".
I never knew this blog would actually help me some day, give me the push I need to make my dream come true..... your post just did that!
Thank you belkkilyn - I owe you one. I really pray to god that he gives you all the power, determination, and mental strength to go the route you have decided, get a great GMAT score, and better yet go to the school of your choice!
As for me - going to get the ball rolling again ......
Take care,
-ngufo
People Never Fail ... They just Give Up